Roses as guns bullets

Dear readers , i'm terribly sorry for neglecting my blog . Really didn't mean to . Just that I've been very busy with upcoming examinations and school work . Added on top of that TUTION. Gosh , I've just been given my art examinion question. I'm like so dead. Thankfully I'm like recovering from my illness. All I can say that these days have been very busy and well , outings , studying and all are making me ....... so wanna have a getaway trip !
Urghs , I shall end here. And please do not use any other people name to tag my blog . I've deleted all the post cause I find it meaningless to keep/read it.

Sorry to those that have tag with and I didn't reply . Perharps you can tag again , once again , I'll update whenever I'm free. Promise. And good luck to those taking examination pretty soon! (:

---XXOXOX

That was when you ruled the world ..........




( post will be uploaded tomorrow. very tired now, sorreeehhhhh ): )

You got me on a sugar rush .......



Sundaysundayanddddddddddddddd SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Guess I would be having monday blues tomorrow once again. Monday lessons are always so mundane. Yes I know I've been repeating myself. But if I were to show you my timetable , you'll catch what I mean. Like seriously. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaa, these days , I simply can't get to sleep even though I'm tired. I've totally have no idea why. Damn weird , anyone know what is wrong with me? ): Got up early in the morning for my tution. Well , today's lesson was much more productive compared to the 1st lesson. Perharps it's because of the chapter that I've missed out due to my absence.



Lay around after tution. Watched the TV and waited for Kim to end her tution. Bathe and met Daryl down my place , bought down sec2 books for Danny. It weight a ton and in the end , Danny didn't turn up . Sadded. Met Kim at Mac , mugged like crazy. I've gotta say something , Daryl has unlimited patience. Why did I say so even though he hanged my phone ? (Well , my phone is back to normal , so yea) Er , that's because he didn't give up teaching me Maths. I'm like so STML you can tell me the formula , after a few other questions done , I'll be damn blank at it again. Hereby , thanks hell loads and if I pass my examination or make a huge improvement , I'll treat you to a meal . PinkyPromise.




Mommy came by to buy me dinner. Thanks Mommy. She had a photoshoot while I was mugging at mac. For the first time in my 14/15 years of life , yesterday was my 1st time seeing my Mommy putting on false eyelashers just for the photoshoot. So amazing and OMG can?!?!?!? I tired to encourage her to wear false eyelashers before , but no matter what , she simply just won't do it. So yup , she looks good with it. After that , went over to petal . Kim went off shortly after. Something fucked up my day night. Thanks hell load you bloody little fucker (it pains me to say this but my blood just boils at the thought of what you requested.) Over my dead body would I do that just to please her. It's between you and her , it's YOUR relationship , why should I ? Call me selfish whatever , I don't give a damn . Even people around me finds it ridiculous. Think it through. Went home after that . And now , I can't get myself to bed ): .

Viva la vida. --xxoxox



(I couldn't sleep last night , I walked along the beach that we used to go hand in hand , enjoying the sunset.)

You can talk all you want ..........



The days pass by us so fast. Unknowingly , the days turns to hours the hours turns to minutes minutes turns to seconds. In short , I feel that the days are passing by in a very fast manner. Way too fast unexpectedly. People change , people grow old , people die . Friends come and go , relationship started and ended. Everything and anything can happen almost in a blink of an eye. I feel so abstruse these days. I'm so gald that day by day I'm growing stronger phyiscally and mentally. Hopefully , no more heartaches will happen. From now on , I must not let history to repeat itself. I will stand strong and firm . I can't afford to have another heart ache. On that note , I hereby mention that from now on , I shall forcus more on my studies , life and friends and well of course , family.



It was raining cats and dogs and donkeys and horse today. Thunder kept on roaring loudly like nobody's business. Dark clouds covered my entire area. Met Kim and Danny at Mac to mug. Huimei and her Bf , Weijie and his friends came popping by. Daryl came too. Headed to the coffeeshop to eat our dinner . I almost died out of hunger. After that , send Kim home and slacked at a nearby void deck with Daryl. That asshole spoilt my phone. Thanks ahhhhhhhhhh Daryl thanks hell load. ( I know you would be reading this , so yea , THANKS MAN.) Now due to it , I have limited photos and my phone is currently switched off , have to send it for repair tomorrow. ): So upset and depressed about it. After that , went over to petal and played basketball for a while . Went home after that . And here I am sitting in front of my computer blogging.
So SHOULD I UPDATE EVERY DAY OR WHENEVER I'M FREE READERS?!!?!?!??!?!
Do leave a tag to let me know your answers!

XXXOXO--Peace out.



(With a broken heart and soul , with broken mind and a broken body , what more do you want from me?)

You appear in my dreams these days ........



Good friday, how did I spend my GoodFriday? Well , for those people that know me well enough will know that I'm a Catholic. But the fact is that , I'm not those type of Catholic that visits the church every single day of my life. To me , I believe that as long as I pray sincerely from the bottom of my heart , I'm sure that God would be able to receive my pryers and it doesn't really matter where I'm praying at. Therefore , that's my point of view. (No offence to those that attend masses every day) . I do have relatives/friends that attends masses (church service/prayer time) every day of their live . I'm not against it. Just that I don't really like it when people's tongue starts to wag saying that I'm turning to a free-thinker like my sisters(who were born Catholice) , and all sorts of thing like I'm doing the bad thing , I'm going to change my religious views . I'm picking up smoking and stuff cause I'm not attending church so long and so for. I hate it when people makes such remarks. It's total bullshit. I don't believe that by picking up smoking and stuff it due to ' me-not-attending-church ' , to me , it's my own decision and I'll make the effort to quit it.
(I'm just ranting out what I've been keeping inside me.)




So anyway , I was supposed to meet my Kim today. However, things were delayed and cancelled last minute. I've got a news to share with everyone. As I thought that today was a great day to relax myself like go facial , manicure&pedicure , pluck my eyebrows. Guess what , I plucked my eyebrows and it turn out perfectly , however all thanks to my itchy hand , I decided to trim it a little and fuck it . I created a pattern on my eyebrow. Which means that I've to draw my eyebrow every single day when I attend school or go out. I don't wanna be a laughing stock. I'm so sad and depressed about it , even Mommy is laughing her ass off when she sees me. ):
Lesson learnt I won't trim my eyebrows , I would have it done by my sister or make my way down to the shop.
One last question for you guys ,
Do you guys/girls/people prefer me to blog every single day or whenever I have the time to blog? Do leave me a comment to let me know your point of view , thanks!

With loads of love ,


(I nearly broke down when I heard that you mind seeing me at the chalet. Why are you still unable to face me? I've been heartbroken by you , yet I still have the courage to face you , why can't you do the same?)

If you took charge of my world .....



Got up superb late in the morning. Say , 7am? did not want to give school a miss. Therefore , took my time down to school. The teacher was pissing me off. I didn't mean it and she's like , 'one more time you come in to school after 8am, you'll be sent home.' - that's the new school rule. Believe it or not, that's how stupid my school can get. Found out that I wasn't the only late. Kim , Danny and Kenneth were late too. Didn't get to meet them anyway. School was rather fine , my teacher said that I was crazy cause I bought a mini pillow that Juexin gave me as a birthday present. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.



After school , went over to Damai to meet Kim. Took a bus back home and bathed etc, went down to Mac and met Francis , Andy , his Gf and Kim there. Only Francis , Kim and myself left the place to head down to Pasir Ris. Well , things didn't turn out the way it was expected to be. Or maybe what I can say is that , things were already going to happen , just sooner or later. Went down and saw some people that made me wanna puke. Totally spoilt my mood along with , they know who they are. Luke came down to find me , thanks yo. After some stuff happened , our moods were damn screwed up , left the place, stop over at dte , mac to chill a little. That was when all the fun stuff starts to kick up.




We stood where the grass were located. Start taking crazy pictures. Were so crazy that most pictures were so blur cause we kept moving and laughing. Cab home with Kim and her friend , Guowei. Before that , had a small heart2heart talk to Kim. , Honey my heart was really broken into pieces when I saw you at that state . We all know that the fault wasn't fully yours. In fact , to me , I don't even think that you're at fault. Cheer up please.
Walked home but saw Gina along the way. Decided to slack with her. Got home , onlined and Luke kept on pestering me about his pictures. Nearly wanted to kill him. Gagaga , anyway enjoy the picture.



Goodnight , with loads of love.



' Everything that happens in life are just a lesson learnt for us. Be it good or bad , we still have to live with it every single day. Even when times gets really rough , my dear girl , be strong. The journey ahead would not be smooth , fret not , I'll do my every best in order to let you see that there's always a reason why such things happen. Don't give up , keep on going , keep your mind set and go straight for it. The decision is yours , I'm all behind you. '
- I believe the person know who she is.

I would never fall in love with you ......




Pictures that were taken yesterday and superb overdued(andy's birthday present) . Got up feeling very uneasy. I had difficulities in breathing , my lungs were like cramp up together. Everything was so tight and difficult. For a second , I thought that I was going to die just like this. Stomach pains came shortly for that. Gave school a miss as the pain was killing me so much.
Slept like a log till around 3plus , was woken up by a call. Found out that I had 10 other missed calls and 5 messages. Gosh , thanksfully my phone was in a silent mode. Woke up and was planning on going down to Mac to find Kim. However , my stomach had issues with me like again. I was feeling so restless , so tired , as if I've lost all my energy. So I stayed at home all day long , with my pair of eyes stuck onto the computer screen. Tomorrow is like Thursday followed by a holiday. Oh wait , tomorrow's Naikhee's chalet. (need to call Kim for that)




The above pictures are present for Andy. Yes , ANDY. In case you're wondering why it's pink and so girly , it was because my dear Kimmykimkim chose it and said that it was cute. It's an ashstray. Not that we're encouraging him to smoke , but it's a gift that he would love and make full and good use of it. Heard that that 'someone' is going to attend Andy's chalet which is after Naikhee's chalet. Boy I do hope that everything would be fine.
I'm addicted to Korean drama once again. Catching it on Youtube now. Goodnight everyone.


(with the wind carrying your smell , tell me how am I able to get over you?)

I prayed for the second time tonight .....



Dear me , I was almost late for school today. Nowadays , I hate to be late. Ok , maybe not hate . Hate ain't the right word . More to like ..... I want to keep a clean record till end of this year? But I doubt so sometimes . /: I've got no idea what I'm talking . Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Had a very very heavy breakfast in the morning. Slept in class like again. (self-slap x2) . Skipped recess due to the heavy breakfast that I had . Slept even more in class. Mr Vinay called me 'sleeping beauty' as I kept falling a sleep in his class. He even realised that my name , Josie was a french name. Ok , for that , I forgive you MrVinay for calling me a 'sleeping beauty' . HAHHAHAHA.




As you can see from the above picture , Xiaopang AKA XP, is so damn cue and tempting to pinch right ?! He gives weird expressions all the time plus , he never fails to act innocent whenever he gets caught for something. And Axl as you guys know , TSK using phone during lesson time ? . They were acting camera shy. Xiaopang resisted by hiding his face behind his hands at first , however , after I keep saying that I'll snap a nice shot , he gave me the above 2 expressions. I laughed my ass out as I uploaded the pictures to the computer.



The plants that is adopted by my class . 2 pathetic plant. Grow plant , growwwwwwwwwwwwwww. It's placed right beside me . So I'm like sort of in charge of it'slife and death. Rarrrrrrrr): After school , ,my stomach was giving me some problems , went home and bathed. Got changed and went down to ParkwayParade to meet Kim and Jaz. Shopped around for Naikhee's present. Went down to Petal to pass stuff to my 'dad's friend again. HAHHAHA. Pardon me , as I don't really know how to spell his name /: (I suck big time at chinese). Went home after that. Friday , come to Mommy soon.

I'm feeling heels over head.
Bye.



(I won't resist in running a thousands of hundreds miles just to see your smile.)

You spin my head right round right round .......



Mundane is equal to Monday. Why? Cause my lessons are like so O-M-G. For those that in my class would understand what I mean . Like socialstudies+chemsity+physics = hell mundane. Oh well , I've just received my exams timetable. It's like a freaking 1month time. Like 30 more days?! *shot myself in the head.
Screw it man , I really think that time passes by so quickly , so fast that none of us don't realised how much time we've wasted. Felt very uneasy in school today due to like gastic I guess? Was feeling very moody. Pardon me for being so moody , Deborah! Had no idea what was going on with me.




Slept during lessons again (self-slap) , I can't afford to lose anymore time , I need to drink Redbull. Yes , that's what I really need nowadays to keep me going. Got up and discovered that my left eye was hurting so much. Guess what? I had sore-eyes. Like I swear I did not wear any contact lens or what so ever to sleep . I take good care of my eyes now , and I have like sore .... SOREEYES?!?!?!?!??!. Gave chinese lesson a miss due to my eyes as it was bearly tolerate-able.(sp?) Got home and had my shower. Chill and went down to find Kim and the rest. Reached there and had to cycle back home to get basketball shorts for my 'dad's friend. As usual , send Kimmy home and ate prata after that , went home after Mommy gave me a call around 10plus?
Goodnight peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.



(Let's talk about what we have here right now.)

My tongue dances behind my lips for you .......

So here comes YELLOW BANANA SUNDAY . Great apologize for not adjusting the time of my post. I didn't realised it until I came home one day I show that it was not updated. I swear , I panicked like a mad person. I was like wtf? Where has all my post gone to? Oh well, I hope that I won't have anymore short-term-memory lost in the future. Tomorrow is a school day , and I'm still having the holiday mood , believe it or not?! Gosh , somebody help me before I get myself into hot soup. Like I really need to forcus on my studies now. Examinations are in a month time. Let's pack our books and stick our pair of eyes into it till our eye balls pops out. Hopefully , I would do well this time round . Baaaaaaaaaaaaaa, the previous examination was done pretty badly. I need to brush really hard on my studies.



Anyway , what happened today? Well I guess you could roughly guess where I've been or what I've been doing these days. Yup , that's right , I got up late therefore , didn't went to mug with Kim. Sorry Honeyyyyy. Huimei , Danny , Black and co was there by the time I got down like around evening? Before that , I had my facial sauna. Mommy bought it from Watsons. It's damn good I swear , you guys should give it a try , after using it , I could feel the different. HAHAHAH, ok maybe I felt more refreshed cause I did it just after I get up. So whatever.
Back to the point , went down and as it was raining cats and dogs before that , everyone was over at CC. Cycled Kim around again and had another heart to heart session. Honey , seriously cheer up alrights? Don't keep pondering over it.


(thanks honey for the 'flower' (: )
Cycled all around the carparks before heading back to the CC. Honey went off with Danny. Played basketball and went home shortly after that. Was feeling hot yet cold at the same time. Somebody kill me please , my nails are short enough however , I've not been taking good care of it and it's like breaking off every now and then. Seriously pissing me off like no end.
Toodddlleeesss.



(we've only got this much time in this planet , why waste it when we can live it ?)

What if ever one day I'm gone for good ? ......



Got up very late as I slept superb late last night as I've mentioned. Called Kim and she had already finished her tution . Met her at Macdonald's . Bought her icecream and a box of tissue. The weather is seriously killing me and Kimmy. Went to mug and had a puff . Kim's budget 50cent lighter AKA 'fire' is like so ....... zzzz . Why? She tried lighting it up , and the fuel sort of came out and spilled onto Kim and me . Gosh , I nearly freaked out as I was so afraid that it would like burn me or something. So anyway , both of us did managed to complete our work. My Kimmy still owe me a bunch of flowers! Went out around evening for tution. My tutor is sort of young. I expected her to be a little older. Oh well , she speaks pretty fast and her handwritting is like very very very ... TSKTSK.



In short , I do hope that I'm able to catch hold of what she's explaning. After tution , went down to Mac to find Kim . Wendy and her friends were there too. Used Wendy's friend's laptop to update my previous blogpost. After that , headed to Prata to return the laptop. Headed down to Petal to play basketball once again. After that , cycled Kim home once again. Haahahhaha. She sort of like enjoyed me riding her home. Well , after that , cycled back to Petal and chit chat with Wendy. Played a match with her and I lost ): Hmps. Damn sad and depressed I swear. Oh well , I need to train even more! (:



After playing for like an hour or so , Mommy called me to get my ass home . Thanks Wendy and Jaslene for sending me home <3> Watched some movies on the television. Suddenly , received a call from Kimmy. Dear honey , this goes out to you. I'm pretty sure that he won't let history to repeat itself once again. Don't get to affected be it. You should know that I would be by you whenever you need me . Sorry for not being able to find you yesterday as it was pretty late. And I'm sure you know what's the other reason ....... I really want to control myself . No I need to control. Slept pretty late last night. Meeting Kim once again tomorrow. Goodnight people.

(With your hearts all over my world tonight , there's nothing more that I can ask for. xxoxoxo.)

Let's just run away from reality....



Fry-day. What can I say about friday? Well I love friday very much as school dismissal is so much earlier. I'm pretty sure many would agree with it. School was fine , in fact , not so mundane as I expected.Art presentation was fine. I hope that my partner , Hakeem(ah) and myself would score with flying colours for it. Cross-fingers. After Art was like , my 'used to be favourite' period which was Physical Education , in short , PE. However , ever since the change of teacher in charge , I , personally and some of my friends didn't like the teacher. Not that we're been judgemental but , imagine you have a hypocrite and unreasonable teacher. Why did I mentioned hypocrite? Well , there was this incident that happened and that was what caused this whole damn thing to happen. Irene , as you all know , (my classmate for like 3 years) got scolded/shouted at by the current teacher , Mr Quek AKA short-tongued. (No offence to those with short tongue) What happened? Simple , Irene just took a quick glance at her mobile phone to check the time , however Mr Quek tried to act fierce by raising his hands up and down(as if he wanted a fight) and kept on shouting at her, Irene (quiet/miss-little-sunshine) burst into tears.
As for hypocrite , when my PE teacher , MsChin / Mrs Tan was around , he would act as if he was a oh-so-good/kind teacher. And behind her, he starts to shout around like nobody's business. Tell me now , would you like such teacher to be your TEACHER?! To me? HELL NO WAY MAN!
Urghhhsss , I just have to tolerate with him till this term ends. Which is so -'- man.



Enough of him , seeing him just makes my day mundane and moody. Played basketball with Deborah during recess time , went out to take a puff after school with Sherri. Went to 631 for lunch with Wendy and Shishi. Headed home after that , bathe - changed - came down to mac to meet Kim. Mugged and Naikhee kept on disturbing me by like playing a 'game' with me. What did he did? He was like taking control of the volume and the song. I had to guess what song was playing with a volume of like 1/ Superb soft to the max. If I got it correct , he would increase the volume , if I got it wrong/ couldn't answer within 5 seconds , he would decrease the volume. Rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr , I nearly wanted to kill him. Kim and Naikhee went to walk around/take a break. Danny is a genius in drawing the above right picture was him doing a 'tatoo' for me on my hands within minutes! Gosh , even Kim agrees that he's a genius. After that , went over to Petal to watch the guys to play basketball. Cycle-d Kim around and talk about lots of stuff she's so damn cute , as we made our way to petal , she pluck out a small flower from , 'I've not idea where' handed to me and said :' Baby I love you. ' Totally melts my heart. Thanks sweety <3> (inserts loads of love and wet big kisses from me to you) Headed home around 11plus. Slept at like 2? Gosh , I'm meeting Kim tomorrow again.


(you left a whisper in my ear , a secret on my lips , a hug that couldn't be replaced , where have all this gone to?)

You stir my whole mind up .....



H.A.P.P.Y 17TH B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y , A.N.D.Y !
You're officially 17th hur? Yeayea don't show off to me. I know it's still a very long time for me to officially to be even 16th . Man , but whatever it is , I wish you well in whatever you do. I do hope that you like the present that Kim and myself gave you. Have fun using it ok? But it's not to encourage you to smoke even more. So anyway , hope that you did have a great time with your gf (: .



School was fine. However , was feeling damn sleepy during the periods after recess.Was feeling veryveryveryvery sleepy and restless. Was hoping so much that today was a Friday. Assembly was bullshit. Some stupid ceremony that I didn't understand why is there such ceremony exisiting. After assembly headed back to class for the last period. Before that , Mrs Ng reminded me of my dentetion. Yea , sad to said that I've owe the school 2 hours of dentention cause of skipping useless chinese lessons that are assigned after school. Like it's damn tiring and hot and makes people want to sleep in class.



So anyway , went out of school safely without getting caught . Went to have a puff with Sherri outside school. Had some chats and suddenly all those memories fell back to me once again. The good old days where we used to take a puff together , slack together and gossip together. Well both Sherri and I find that we were chidlish and foolish last time for having conflict over such a minor thing that happened last year that caused the whole damn thing to happen. People do make mistakes. Hopefully the both of us have learned our lessons and yup , talked about a hell loads of stuff and Kim 3G me. No wait , I 3G Kim cause she said that she couldn't 3G me as she wanted to show me what she was getting for Andy. We got him a pink-pig ashtray as he mentioned that to Kim before. Along with a pink bag and a card , it was like a total thing for a girl.(will upload pictures about it pretty soon) .
Really hope that he likes it. Went down to petal as usual , did homework and chat about
something with Kim.




In short , the day didn't really turned out pretty fine. Most of the people were feeling upset.
Boy I do agree with Kim that this year ain't really a good one. I just hope that everything would go smoothly as time comes by.


(the promise you made , I shall not forget nor let it go. Till someday you come to realised about it. Yes , I'm letting go of you from my mind . But I'll never let go our memories that we shared.)

Is the grass really greener on the other side? .....




Is the grass really greener on the other side? Well ....... This question as been stuck in my brain for these past few days. Am I really at my breaking point once again? Well I hope , no , I must not let myself get into the state of any breaking point that happened before. I need to inform myself everyday that the day would turn out to be fine. I need to know that I still have my family and loved ones around me . I know I'm on the right track. Even though I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore , I won't be bothered by it. I'll stay strong and I'll do my best in studies.

Anyways , I've a piece of news to share with you guys , to tell you the truth , I'm actually going to have an operation very soon. I had my tongue stud stuck around my intestine and they'll need to operate me to get it out as it's affecting me badly. I get sharp pains every once in a while. I really hope that I do recover ): . I'm feeling very scared. In fact , it's very terrified.




School was pretty fun today. I had totally forgotten about April Fool's till Deborah said this to me .Here's our conversation :
Deborah : Eh I'm attending school for half a day today.
Me : WHY?!?!!?!??!?!
Deborah : HAHAH , APRIL'S FOOL! .
Me : (inserts the damn jiaobin and fuck face!)
She kept laughing her ass off. Started pranking other people too. My classmate , Raimy , man he is such a good actor that my form teacher totally fell for it. What did he do?
Well , we were having lesson , as lesson was about to end , we heard and saw Haqiz with Raimy lying on this hands. At first I thought it was for real , but I was having doubt about it and ask one of the guys , they told me it was fake. So yup .
Mrs Ng was panicking and called for St.John (XiaoPang) . Immediately when Xiaopang heard 'St.John' he gave a face and quickly tired to make his move. Just then , Raimy shouted , ' HAHAHAHH APRIL FOOL! ' Clearly my form teacher was shocked/laughing/angry.



After that , we prank 307's FT and did many things like the picture below. (we turned our turn the other way round . My teacher was shocked when she saw us. hahhaha )
I went to the toilet the period before school dismissal and on my way back , I thought of pranking my form teacher again. Well this was how things went:
Me : Cher(short form for teacher) , don't get mad or anything after I tell you something alright?
Cher : What is it?
Me : I......I ...... I dropped your pass into the toilet bowl.
Cher : (giving the 'I doubt you face' ) Don't bluff.
Me : (giving the 'very serious face') Seriously , look at me , I'm not joking it is really in the toilet bowl.
Cher: (panicked) Then where is it now? Go flush it away I don't want it.
Me : HAHAHAHAH APRIL FOOL!
Yup at least I'm gald that I did had fun today.



Once again , Happy April Fool. Gosh , Andy's(lil brother) birthday is like .... tomorrow?! .
As you can see what my class is made of. And what we did .
( in case for those that hate me , if you're dumb enough to believe what I've just said , and are celebrating about it, too bad for you . Cause it's a damn joke and I'm still doing fine , kicking around.)
Ciaos.